Great and Unsearchable Things

Things the Lord gives me, and then I write them.

Thursday, June 07, 2018

Little Foxes Spoil the Vine

     It is our ruts or routines, possibly becoming habits, even addictions that rob our lives. Repetitive behaviors that we may find security in, or feel comfortable with, can close us off from following the path of the Spirit each new day. 
     If we have certain swaths of time roped off because we are doing this or doing that, and leave the rest to God, then we have not really surrendered all. 
     I have found that I have had 4 things which may be considered the "little foxes that spoil the vine" in my life. These things become ritualistic in my day, if I don't get a handle on them. Today I want to just stop doing them, freeing up my time to really be present in my life, or should I say, His life in me. I want to offer Him all of me and my time. I am finding, however, that it is not easy. Has what I enjoy become a trap? Does it have it's claws in me? Have I fallen and I can't get up? 
     Even though, we, as believers, have resurrection power on the inside of us, our repetitive behaviors has become imprinted in our souls, (mind, will, emotions, and sometimes our bodies) and there is still a battle to overcome. That is where I am now. I feel the pull on the inside of me to stay in my predictable path, and tell myself it will be alright. But, God, is saying "no." He is saying that He wants nothing to have a hold on us. He wants to have free reign in our lives, and that is exactly what it will take for our lives to fulfill His plan and purpose for it. 

"They triumphed over him (the enemy of our souls) by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death."-Rev. 12:11

To be conformed into His image, which is His ultimate plan for our lives, we must not shrink from the death of our flesh. It is a struggle we must be willing to endure. I must be willing to endure the breaking of these habits, not tomorrow, not the next day for, today is the day of salvation. 

Friday, April 06, 2018


During these past few weeks, things have transpired in my life, which challenged some of the revelations God showed me, from the Word of God written in a booklet I wrote entitled Soldiers of the Cross.

I had to wrestle through, hoping to hold onto these truths, as I saw them, and at the same time, be open to hearing His voice, if I had heard wrong previously. After all, this booklet has been published and distributed in India, and some in America, and I am held responsible to what I teach. If proven in error, I was ready to stop the press in publishing 2000 more copies, which myself and a pastor there had planned on doing. 
After acknowledging God, I examined the Scriptures two trusted sisters had brought to my attention, challenging the truths I had written. I read carefully. The first verses of the set of Scriptures they gave me seemed to confirm that I was, indeed, in error. I kept reading, and I couldn’t believe what was being said in the final two verses! They confirmed what I had thought all along. I couldn’t understand why these sisters would even include these verses, which confirmed one of the points I was making. Couldn't they see? 

Then a second set of Scriptures was presented to me. When I was reading those, God revealed to me that these Scriptures have been used in the past, with a traditional rendering through the ages to mean one thing, but He wrote them to communicate something else. He was using a teaching about the characteristics of demons, as an analogy, to speak to rebellious Israel about their own behavior.

My sisters and I respectfully, went back and forth sharing the Word of God, continuing to see two different things. The Holy Spirit would let me only go so far, when it was obvious that it wasn’t going anywhere, and to press further would violate their wills, and also God’s.

Later when I was reading the complete writing one of the sisters had written on Deliverance, (which was what my booklet is about) the Spirit of God spoke to me in my spirit. Below is what was communicated, in my own words:

You can’t prove a revelation on the Word of God, by the Word of God. The added element is the eyes He gives you to see spiritual reality, or the understanding as He sees it, on a subject, or on many subjects.  It is not extra-Biblical, as some have coined the term, but it IS, indeed, going beyond the written letter, and peering into the spiritual realm. Some will see it; some will not. It is not a matter of right or wrong, but one of veils that need removing, and God is faithful to continue to work in us all, conforming us into the image of Christ. We are transitioning from the realm of soul to the realm of spirit as we change. When God gives a revelation to someone, it does not matter who sees it, but the person it is entrusted to must respond to it, as directed by God, and must walk in it’s light regardless.

Thursday, March 22, 2018

Secrets from the Bedroom

So many times, I have cast my pearls before swine. I have spoken things the Lord has shown me in secret to anyone who would listen, treating as common what is sacred. It has taken years for me to see that,  so many times, the Lord, my lover, has shared specific things from His heart to just me; things which were  spoken in the bedroom, and which need to stay there.
Now that I am beginning to keep these things between Him and me, I cherish and am impacted by them in a powerful way! Can I even say, that when I hold them in my heart, as is His desire, it changes me?  Somehow, by me retaining them, these pearls on the inside of me, become jewels that adorn my spirit, but if shouted from the rooftops to anyone who will hear, they are gobbled up, and seem to disappear, because they weren’t meant for others, but for me.
Why are we prone to share these personal revelations with others? Perhaps it’s because we get so excited at what He’s shown us, because they’ve blessed us so much that we want others to be blessed in this same way. And when we are young and in love, I believe there is grace for that. Perhaps our indiscretion is due to our insecurities, and we want to “prove” to others that God really loves us, or maybe we, subconsciously are trying to evoke jealousy, God forbid. Whatever the reasons, good or bad, there comes a time in our relationship with Him, that He expects us to mature, and keep His private, love messages to us, hidden deeply in our hearts. When we begin to do this, our spirits are beginning to become One with His, and the love He has for us, is the fount from which we are nourished and sustained, never to run dry.
The Word of God relays several instances of when Jesus imparts His touch to someone that brings healing, then instructs them to tell no man. His  personal Words of life also bring healing to our minds, wills, and emotions and are customized to bring us wholeness. These Words and/or truths He shows us are sacred and life bringing, spoken in trust and intimacy. They are so powerful and necessary to our well being, that even as we meditate on them days, or even years later, we find that their impact has not lessened at all. And our love for Him gets deeper and deeper. We start to realize that Paul’s prayer for “all the saints of God” is being answered in us in a miraculous way!!!

Ephesians 3:17b-19-“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.”

How vast that love is!!!!! And, as we spend time alone with Him, more and more of that very personal love becomes a part of who we are becoming, bringing glory to Him!!!

Wednesday, March 07, 2018

The Loving Grace of Discipline

     Our stubborn will and sin nature are no match for God’s discipline, if we are His. He will use whatever means  necessary to bring His own back to Him in humility and surrender. Is this not a comfort to you? Do you want to let your own will have it’s way without a barrier, even His harsh discipline, which keeps you safe in His hand, instead of falling into the place where men perish? Is this not a loving act for Him to stand as a brass wall between your soul and the gates of Hell? To block your entrance into the flaming pit when you were blindly running headlong towards it?
     If your will is to do His will, you are considered a man after God’s own heart, and if in innocence you become deceived, and stray, God has a promise for you: If Christ has saved you, He will also bring you back to keep you from falling into self-destruction. His discipline marks you as His own, and is one of the beautiful facets of His loving and keeping grace. But, if in prideful defiance you resist this grace, and insist on living rebelliously in opposition to His Will, you prove your own illegitimacy, and He will say,”You are none of mine. Go where you must.” And to perdition you must go; because you have chosen that.

Friday, December 01, 2017

Humility Begets Restoration

     In the past couple of days, I’ve been easier to cry as I express myself to the Lord, and it feels good because it shows me that my heart is not dead, hard, and cold. When the depth of my heart, where feelings lie, is exposed, through expression, is when our pride of always having to be fine, and ok, is challenged, and even begins to crumble. Living all put together for too long, can have the effect of convincing ourselves that we really are fine, and denies and defies the truth of our own heart; those things that have been stored there for too long, unattended.
     And what is the consequence of this malady? A stoic exterior, seemingly aloof and uncaring to the suffering and needs of others, not to mention the harm to oneself of not getting healed by the Lord, because we haven’t let our guard down to even admit we have a need.
     And that is where the wonderful tool of suffering comes in. God’s plan for the restoration of all things, includes the soul’s of His children; He will complete what He started in us, using whatever means necessary, and our own suffering and pain, whether it be because our expectations and plans for our lives didn’t come to pass, or that our own repeated failures left us sad, frustrated, or even angry beyond cure, or even physical limitations or pain, He uses all our suffering, to get us to a place of brokenness and despair.
     In my case, the softening of my heart has resulted from all of these things; that is why I can write them so freely and surely. I was trying to perfect myself, unknowingly, in my soul and body, and I was met with failure, every step of the way. Little did I know, I was fighting God’s help and dependence in my life. I didn’t want to be a baby. I wanted to be capable and strong and admired. I think I have been seen as all of those things to others, but it was only a front, because the things that I wasn’t dealing with well on the inside, were so stacked up, that it was inevitable that I would break sooner or later. And, I am so glad that I did, and unless I hadn’t written this down, no one would have known about it. The Lord was gracious enough to keep it between me and Him. But I am choosing to share this, thinking it might help someone else to know that being broken before the Lord, is a good thing, and precedes our healing, which I’m defining as being dependent on Him which is the most wonderful place to be. It is knowing what it is to be under the shadow of His wing; the place of serenity and protection; nestled in His arms; knowing you’re His.
     What stress is relieved when you are broken and cry out to Him for help! Just admitting you can’t do it, or take it anymore, is only the beginning of a true love relationship where trusting Christ with your life is fulfilled. Staying in this place of humility is abiding in Him; never to be severed from the Vine that nourishes you.
     A song called, “O, Holy Night” referring to the coming of Christ into the world, has a phrase that now has a deeper meaning for me: “Fall on your knees.” I see His Presence in my life and, I want no other response, for that is where I connect with Him in my brokenness.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Following Jesus With Our Lives

"At once they left their nets and followed him."-Matt. 4:20. When Jesus' disciples were called, this was their response. It is both astounding to me, and revelatory, as how we too, are to respond when He first calls us. 

I can think back on that day, when my life was falling apart, as I lay there on the kitchen floor, after being pushed there by my husband justifiably. My flesh was ruling me, and having harmful effects on not only myself, but my family too. I was trying to right the wrongs in myself, and in the lives of the ones I loved by haranguing myself, and them, to do the right thing. Sadly, though, what I didn't know, was that I couldn't do it. My own will, strong as it was, could not change myself or others on the inside, which was the only thing that could change us. 

Thank God, He knew who I needed, and so, lying there, sad beyond repair, and alone, He came to me, asking me to follow Him. I had to make a decision, because He knew I was at the point of decision. It was either myself or Him. He used a vision to show me this. Once I saw what the end result would be, if I continued on the path that I was on, and the contrast to Life with Him, it really was a no-brainer. I didn't want to suffer anymore. I wanted to be saved and free!!! So,at once, I left my nets and followed Him. 

What are our nets? In my case, they represented all I tried to do to improve myself, and all I thought and acted on to "do life, which was failing miserably." I was so lonely and lost; I could even feel it, but I didn't know how to find Christ. I went to church, and so my conclusion was that I had Him. Even God can penetrate our delusions to save us! 

Following Him requires dropping our nets. Some people think this refers to leaving their jobs, and perhaps it could mean that, depending on one's attachments to it. Those things that keep us from following Him completely, our own past lives even, is what we must leave behind, and not look back.

 I am finding that I had more attachments in this life than I am aware of. As I continue to walk with Him, He exposes more and more of those things that are interfering with drawing closer to Him, and then He calls to me again-"Come follow me." So, again, by the power of His Holy Spirit's strength, and courage, I lay this net down. I noticed an increase in what He is asking me to lay down, ever since I told Him that I want to serve Him fully, with my mind too! All the things I have filled my mind with, which attachments had formed, He is asking from me. 

When we first receive Him, we surrender not only our hearts, but our former lives to Him too! There will be a change. We don't stay the same. In the realm of Spirit, "all things have become new", on the inside of us, as we are born again of the Spirit. Then, as we lay down more and more nets, all things on the outside conform to that given reality. 

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Straighten Up, In Jesus' Name!

     There are so many things on this planet out of alignment with God's will. We, as His Body, are given the power of His Spirit, to play a part in making the crooked places straight; to "pray into His Will" so to speak!!! First things are changed in the realm of spirit; then the natural realm will follow suit.
     For example, the lack of dedicated men, who put God first in their lives, who proclaim to be in Christ. Look around the world and you will see this; that should not be so.
     With the restoration of ALL things, Christ's intention is to cause His men to be strong in Him and in the power of His might. "Rise up, O men of God," is His call to the walking dead man whose idolatry lulls them to sleep. Where are the Abrahams, the Davids, and the Jeremiahs today?
     Many handmaidens of the Lord are waiting patiently for those men to betroth them, but are getting weary in well-doing. They are crying out for a man to be joined to, who have the fire of God in them as they do; to be equally yoked with, but they find none.
     Even the men who are married, are married to other things first before God! And they too are spiritual zombies, walking around blindly, without acknowledging the Lord first in the decisions they make, and without trusting Him to lead them fully. Their dedicated wives, grieve for them too!
     If each one in His Body would choose but one thing out of alignment, and pray His will be done in that area, the remainder of our lives would be well spent. We would be participating in, and be effecting His Will being done, in a focused way, on earth as it is in Heaven. We would be building the city of God, with Him as the Master Builder!!!

 "Then he said to me, “This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, says the LORD of hosts.'" Zechariah 4:6.