Who Am I? (Part 1)

Trauma in childhood can mask the identity of who God created us to be. We can appear to ourselves and others as someone else. That is why it is necessary that God show and heal us of this false identity. If we remain another person, altogether from the one He created us to be, it will affect every area of our life from our own self image, to the relationships we endure, which damage us further, and even to how we understand God’s Word, and how it relates to us individually and to others, as well. We can even spiritualize everything in us, around us, and what happens to us in an attempt to avoid the soul redemption that we so badly need.
The first step in this healing is to hear God, by the Spirit, showing you the damage that has been done to you. Our willingness to acknowledge that is paramount. And we will be willing, since this willingness is the result of letting Him work in you thus far. He gets you to that point. Even if it takes years, it is His grace that you haven’t gotten ahead of Him, because to do so would cause further damage to your soul, if He has not readied you beforehand to be strong enough to endure the healing, and the confusion and unsettledness that will cause before experiencing the freedom, joy and peace on the other side.
Since the pain inflicted (either physical, mental or emotional or, all three) was too hard for your child mind to process or cope with, a certain degree (mild or severe) of dissociation happened in your soul. This means that you blocked out the reality that this was really happening, or that it was that bad, and took yourself and your emotions somewhere else, to a safe place. But, unfortunately, this method you used saved your sanity for that place in time, but since those times, the consequences of using that method, has caused you immense problems throughout your life. In fact, you are probably still using that same method, even if no threats now exist. Triggers of those traumatizing events are still controlling you, while you personify someone that is not even you.
If you can identify with this, you might think, “This sounds like I am a psycho.”  No, not at all. Someone or something or some things (damaging circumstances) HAPPENED to you. You didn’t do anything to deserve it, nor was it anything you lacked or perpetuated within your self. You were a child. (End of Part 1)